It is ready to go,

I take a breath,

Do I really want to know?

The emails come upon the screen

And there is the one I wish I had never seen.

DoD Identifies.

Already the tears are hitting my eyes.

I open the message and shed the tears

These are the words that every mother fears.

I open a file,

I make a call.

I will not falter.

I will not fall.

I am the Blue to Gold Liaison today,

I’ll do my duty in every way.

I contact the Guard right away

They are there for me in every way.

The PGR is by my side

The men and women who will always ride

To honor our heroes in a special way

Their help is critical to me today.

The CAO is hard to find

But the PGR they never mind

They find the contact right away

And help the Blue to Gold in every way.

I ordered the Gold Star Banners today

And pray for our troops who are in harms way.

I take a breath,

I shed a tear

I know the presentation will soon be near.

The time has come for me to stand

Other mothers step forward

With banners in hand

We have a job to do today

We have those words we will have to say

I take a breath

I stand real tall

I will not falter

I will not fall

I start to speak

My heart is breaking

I start to cry

This mother is aching

I say the words as we present the Gold Star Banner

I try to do this in an honorable manner

A young serviceman, was laid, to rest today,

He died for me in a land faraway.

The banner is passed to the Gold Star Mother

I hug the dad, the sister and brother.

I know they just want me to go away.

And I, I have no more to say.

The Guard stand at attention

As we file through the door

The American flag waves proudly

A sign of comfort for sure.

I see the tears,

I hear a sigh,

For they know an angel just learnt to fly.

I drive back home,

I cry all the way,

We lost an American hero today.

I sit at my computer

It’s ready to go.

I am the mother you don’t want to know.